I do NOT want to be back in TX. Everything I was thankful for yesterday is gone and all the drama is back. I hadn't even gotten off the plane and Clint started texting me. Turns out he was on the plane next to me and both were waiting for another to leave. Anyways, he was already texting 2 girls who create more drama than I even care about. He never did come into work, which makes me look responsible, yet stupid. Oh well I have to do what I know is right, not what I want. The office was the same, annoying girl had really upped her ante of being annoying and I just don't know what I can and cannot handle. Right now it feels like nothing. I'm contemplating what kind of illness I can contract so I can just go home.
I found out that I don't have to work on Memorial Day. Most people would be excited about this, I'm ticked as I lose a day worked and don't get a sub holiday. Not fair! The thing that bugs me most is I wasn't asked if I did or did not want to work. This job is about choices and I highly dislike having mine taken away from me.
I can honestly say that sitting in this hotel room I can feel the waves of depression crashing down on me. I am having such a hard time coping with the last month here. I so want to go home and just escape. I realized while being gone that I missed nothing about being down here. I never gave anything a second thought. The only contact I had was with H and that was him not me. He seems to be keeping his resolve about staying in my life. I'm still not sure what I want to do about this or how to handle it. He'll be back in a couple days and I'm hoping it's not going to make me miserable.
AND in other fun news my debbie downer has been actively texting me again. Monday it was she broke up with her "boyfriend", yesterday it was to watch Donald Driver on DWTS, today it was about some random dude we used to work with. I've deleted all of them without any reply. I'm not sure how long it's going to take her to get the hint. I am so not cool with being her friend anymore. She has nothing to offer my life, nor I do hers. I can guarantee I would not share with her anything in my life, cause if I had wanted to, wouldn't I have by now. I've been working on getting this person out of my life for over a year. I'm sooooo close to succeeding. I've debated about deleting her number from my phone and unfriend on FB. I haven't yet, but she's no longer a part of my newsfeed and it makes it so much better to just check in on her when I want.
AND my ex texted me today. I wish he would just go away as well. I've done the same on FB and texting with him. I'm so over that stupid drama. He never makes me feel good about myself, and I can honestly say I've not contacted him in almost a year. Yay me.
I think it's time for bed, and none too soon. I'm so over this day.
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