Baby hussy toes, there is nothing cuter

In 6 sleeps I will be home.  Right now it feels like an eternity.  I cannot wait, mom and lil hussy toes are picking up and I'm so excited.  I cannot wait to be surrounded by everyone and everything I love.

Today was another thrilling day of staying home.  I had to give a presentation at 5 and thank goodness my voice held up.  It wasn't strong and it cracked like a teenage boy, but I made it through.  The only other exciting thing was a quick trip to Target for ingredients to make bars for H's last day.  It's been almost a year since we met and I've never baked anything for him.  This is so unheard of for me, so he gets Special K bars for work.  I'm not even in his dept but feel like I owe it to him and his coworkers.

Last night we had dinner together and I realized how critical me being able to talk is.  He repeated the same 3 topics about 3 times each.  2 I'm not overly joyed to talk about and he could tell.  On the way home he kept looking at me and asking if I was aggravated.  It was hard for me to hide it, but I did my best.  I'm almost a little relieved H is leaving.  I feel like I'm slowly getting back to being me.

I've learned a lot from him and how to be "in a relationship" but it's been tough.  I do NOT handle emotions well which is such a crucial part of being "in a relationship".  I hope to one day find someone who doesn't make it so hard.  Who can answer me with no lies and accept the same from me.  Who makes emotions easy to deal with and not such a roller coaster.  Maybe I'm just delusional about the whole thing.  Either way it's been nice to have someone special in my life.