Covering up my feelings

New Realtree Boots, gonna need them based on the next 2 days of a rainy forecast.

tried it, details below

• Shopping on Saturday was a blast.  I got the boots above and some new sweats, but that's about it.  The craft fair was a bit of a bust for me, but my sis got some great stuff for Boo.
• I babysat so they could go out last night and they were home with groceries by 12am.  Turns out not pre-drinking and being a sloppy mess just isn't that fun when everyone else at the bar is.    I couldn't help but laugh as I came to this conclusion a while ago.
• Today has been a nothing day: laundry, grocery shopping, food prep, garage cleaning and now some Dallas.  
• I tried the new keratin trmt above and it's nice but I wouldn't say it's my savior.  It last for 1 wash or 4 days, and all it really did was smooth down my split ends.  I still had to style my hair after the first wash.  Today was my 2nd wash and I wore my hair curly, so no, it doesn't keep it straight.  I will keep using it because it may help delay my uber expensive salon visits.  Especially since I'm in work mode and I straighten my hair about twice a month now until next October.
• I'm really struggling with PMS this month and I don't know what to do about it.  I want to kill my man and it's not all his fault.  I'm guessing because this is the 3rd month it's been bad that I'm going through some hormonal change again.  I'm getting more frequent migraines as well so time to keep a journal and figure out what's going on.
• My man has been MIA all weekend and I'm really not feeling it.  It's been nearly 24 hrs since I've even received a text from him and I'm about to explode.  Sure I can make the first move, but I'm tired of it.  I work really hard to keep him updated without inundating him with messages.  When he's with his family it's like I don't exist at all.  I know he's not comfortable about telling his parents about me, but he needs to grow up and deal with it.  He's divorced, and dating again, and happy.  I know if it was me, my parents would be ecstatic.  I may have to ask some leading questions tomorrow night to see what's going on.
• It's time to get back to my Dallas marathon.  Oh how I love some drama and shirtless men!

Adulthood: always overrated

Tantrums, lots of tantrums and princess beheadings

Sometimes they are nice and cute and get along.  Sometimes!

• So I'm going back to work next week and spent all day scheduling appts and getting my clothes all sorted.  Now I just need to get a key to my man's house cause I've got to stay there 2 nights next week.  I made stupid early appts and they can only be kept by leaving from his house not mine.
• I went shopping yesterday and man did I do some damage!  Got some new shirts and found the best lounge pants at Herbergers.  Yay to Calvin Klien!
• Last night I had dinner with my man and when we came home he was all about TV and not about me.  I got into bed with my iPad and he joined me about 30 min later.  This is not normal behavior when at my house.  I tried all my moves and got completely rejected! I handled it very poorly and actually told him to stop touching me.  He made it up to me this morning but I still feel mad and guilty about it.  I told him how it made me feel and he acknowledged it but it's still hard.
• The real kicker is I'm going back to work, so zero time for a lot of extra stuff and he's with his family most of the weekend and has a huge paper to write.  Being a grown up really sucks!
• Tonight I've cleaned the kitchen, started into my huge pile of laundry and I'm attacking my DVR with a vengeance.  I really want to dive into the tupperware of cookies I have, but I'm trying to restrain.  I cannot eat my feelings!
• I'm super excited for shopping with my sis tomorrow.  We are going to huge craft fair and then some clothes shopping.  Should be super duper fun!

Not working it Wednesday

Boo has a bug :(

• Monday night I totally nailed a new recipe, Swedish Meatballs.  I followed a recipe I found on The Chew and it was amazing.  I even had to stop midway through because my man didn't have any flour.  Who does that?  It turned out for the best and I will definitely make them again.
• Yesterday was kinda interesting.  My man let me sleep in a bit and then woke me up with coffee, well actually I was up and on the phone for work, but it's the thought that counts.  And I love how he spoils me with the little things.
• After a lazy morning of me making breakfast, him studying, and some quality cuddle time I had to take off for work.  
• I traveled 2 hours down to see Mike and help him with his talent profile.  It's a tool used to help us get promoted.  After a lengthy team conference call, a good bitch session about said conference call, and another co-worker calling us we got down to business.
• After another hour of him explaining it all I finally got them all typed up, along with competencies chosen and damn if he doesn't look better than me :)
• We finally went downstairs for dinner and ran into the field team from WI.  We started chatting and introducing myself to them and before I knew it, it was 9pm, I hadn't eaten and was so tired.  I left and got home at 10:30!!  With no delicious dinner as I had been promised.  I'm glad I didn't have any drinks because I would have been sleeping on a pull out couch and that doesn't sound like fun!
• This morning has been a total waste.  I overslept, missed an optional training, and now have to scramble to get things done today.  I have a board meeting for my town home assoc at my house tonight so I need to clean up a bit, make some cookies, and dinner for myself and get a whole lotta work done.
• It's time to get cracking, or just drink more coffee on the couch and watch The Chew.  Guess which is winning

Whirlwind Weekend

Cooking with mom and Gaga!

such a proud auntie

• Sometimes I can't believe how quickly 3 days can fly by!  
• Friday and most of Saturday my man worked from home.  I got some quality time in, just not as much as I wanted.  Yesterday he spent all day doing homework while I cooked it up domestic style.  I'm totally spoiling him rotten and we are both OK with that.  The tables will turn and he says he's ready when I need him to step up.
• Sat night we went out with my sis and bro-in-law.  Their 10 yr anniversary is this week and all of their plans have fallen through.  The least I could do is be a DD and we had a great time.  I think my man even enjoyed himself!  Sun morning we had brunch with my whole family and Boo was flirting with my man.  It was adorable.
• After breakfast we went to our local Farm and Home to see the puppies.  They sell for breeders and Boo was so freaking adorable.  She kept telling me they were her puppies and then would run over to scare the koi fish in the tank and say hi to the turtles.  I love that kid.
• Last night, while my man did math homework, we watch Monsters Inc, Boo in the movie is just like my boo.  Complete with adorable piggies and bangs!  Funny how you look back on something and see so many similarities.  
• I really need to get in my office and get some work done.  I've convinced my man to work from home for part of the day tomorrow so we can have some more quality time.  
• As I type this I realize I may need to go to the store.  I sliced off a couple layers of skin slicing a bagel earlier and damn it hurts when I type.  I really hope I have some liquid stitches in the cupboard to protect it.
• Time to go be productive so I can be domestic tonight.  Yesterday was tacos and some amazing brownies, tonight it's swedish meatballs and brownie sundaes!  I'm the best GF ever :)

Social or just busy?

My new Gelaze swatches!

• I've had a migraine for 2 days.  To the point that I couldn't read yesterday and today I lasted about 2 hours.  Painting my nails didn't help, but it didn't hurt as I have a weekend ready mani in Lubu Heels!
• My man canceled on me Wed night but it was understandable, so instead he surprised me and came last night.  We always have a great time together and I think he really needed to vent some work stuff and I was happy to listen and give a little advice.
• This weekend has barely started and we both have a lot going on.  He has a bunch of homework to get done, plus a family birthday party tomorrow and I promised to be DD for my sis and her hubby tomorrow night.  It's their 10 yr anniversary next week and she got turned down for 3 jobs for being overqualified.  I figure the best remedy is drinks dancing and your own driver.  I know I'd love that.
• I'm hoping to head up there soon, but he's not home yet.  Trying to carve out time for each other has been tough this week.  I think because we both want to be back in vacation mode.
• Now it's time to find a snack.  I can't put off eating dinner too much longer!

Mini Vacation and a Mini Me

• Vegas was super amazing.  I had a great time and so did my man.  I didn't come back any richer, but that's ok
• I had 2 great talks with my man and it's so good to know we are on the same page.  Now if we make it through storm season it'll be great.
• The funeral was crappy but I think they all are.  Based on what my mom and sister have told me it was ok after I left.  Things were civil, but that's about it.
• Work has been a big suck the last 2 days.  Things are kinda crazy and not in a good way.  I'm hoping my boss gets his poop in a group soon.
• I spent time playing with Boo tonight.  I love that kid so much, and as you can see above she still looks a lot like me.  I thought she was growing out of it, but I was wrong.  It's kinda fun having a mini me!
• Tonight instead of cleaning I made oatmeal scotchies.  I've had a craving for them and man they are good!
• Now it's time to relax and wait for my man to get here.  

Horoscopes can be right?

Today's horoscope: Stress could be a real problem for you today -- so find a healthy outlet. It could be a trip to the gym or a long talk with an old friend, but you need to handle this before it gets the best of you.

Scary accurate since I'll be attending my grandmother's funeral, getting my boyfriend and driving like a crazy person to the airport.  I already have a migraine so this will be super fun!  I know I won't start to relax until we are passed security.  7pm cannot get here fast enough!

Missing out Monday

• Yesterday was one of the greatest Sunday Funday's.  Brunch, beers on the patio then some NE VS WI basketball and a good cook!  All that and it was 72 degrees.  So much fun, plus I got one on one with Clint and had a good talk about relationships.  He's my #1 work hubby for a reason.
• Saturday night was just ok.  No one was super jazzed on going out and I'm too old for bars that have dance floors and DJ's.  I did enjoy making fun of all the Lincoln single ladies.  Oh the desperation.
• My grandma passed away last night and I feel so bad for my dad.  He spent 4 hours at the funeral home with the wicked bitches of the midwest aka his 3 sisters trying to pick a date.  They've settled on Thursday afternoon for visitation, funeral service and dinner.  I have never been so happy to have a flight out at 8pm.  I don't even know if I'll be able to stay for the service.  I do feel bad that I have to leave my dad, but hopefully he's ok.  He told my mom he fought for Thursday so I could attend.
• Boo kept asking for grumpka all weekend.  Yesterday she had gramma but no grumpka as he went to the nursing home.  I swear the lil peanut knew something was wrong.  She kept asking gramma if he was ok and where he was.  They all had dinner tonight and my sis said they both felt better.  
• I miss my man like crazy.  After being around couples all weekend I'm ready to kiss his face off.  Even going home a day early won't allow me time to see him until we leave on Thursday and now I've lost my 20 min window for us to have naughty times.  I'm so sad.
• I started packing tonight so maybe I'll get one last hang out with Clint before I leave.  I'm guessing I likely won't since he has interview prep tomorrow and will be wiped out.

Being social is exhausting

Friday night fun, pedi's and beers with the work hubs and his GF

and yes he's rocking 2 purses, cause he's that manly

• It's been a busy week that has drained all the life out of me.
• Wednesday was dinner with my teammate at the new "hot" restaurant in Lincoln.  It was 4/10 for me and the owner was a total douche because we didn't have reservations.  
• Thursday drinks at a martini bar, these were delish and the group was small.  Perfect outing
• Last night I went and got a pedi with Clint's GF Brittany, she's still not my favorite but she's growing on me.  It's tough when there's and 11 yr age and maturity gap.  Sometimes I just want to shake her.
• I was supposed to work all day today, but opted to get some much needed rest and am working from my hotel room.  No one is in the office, so why bother when I'm comfy in my jammies!
• Tonight we are going out again and I'm looking forward to it.  Should be fun!
• Tomorrow I really want to get to the new outlet mall but I have a feeling I won't be up for too much.
• I also got news that my dad's mom isn't doing well and they aren't sure how long she's got left.  She has alzheimers, and contracted pneumonia.  She stopped eating on Wed and wasn't responding to hardly anything.  I hope she goes quickly if this is her time to go.  It's a very strained relationship with my dad's family so the whole thing will be awkward.
• I've been missing my man like crazy.  He's been really good about texting and calling this week so I feel like this can work.  I had a crazy thought that I could be as naughty as I wanted and he'd never be the wiser.  He's so trusting, and I love that and realized I respect it too.  I could never do that to him.  That's some real personal growth!
• Now it's time to finish my year end review and get in the shower.  Brit will be here soon to pick me up.

Talk it up Tuesdays

Future Monets?

• Being in an office is not my cup of tea.  It's going to be a very long 10 days.  Hoping tomorrow goes a bit more as planned and I can get into a decent routine.  Nothing went as planned today and I still feel out of sorts.
• I have some super annoying co-workers and I think as long as I don't drink I won't blurt out horribly inappropriate things.
• I tried the new China Glaze Gelaze gel polish and I think I'm in love.  Has 2 less steps and goes on so much easier.  Right now it's BOGO at Sally so I'll be making my way down there tomorrow to get some more colors.
• Since I started dating my man I've been worried about how he'll handle me leaving, never ever gave it a thought about how I'd feel.  It really super duper sucks and I miss him after only 36 hours.  I am going to be working from home once we return from Vegas, so there's a big plus.
• 9 sleeps to home and vacation!!!

Playing Catch Up

Bedtime Cuddle buddies!

Visiting her dogs at Farm and Home

Yes those are 10 bichon/maltese puppies all sleeping on top of each other

• Last week was a bit of a whirlwind. So here's the short version
• Monday was a sick day, my head was still pounding and I could not concentrate on anything.  I ended up heading to my man's place early in the afternoon and he did his best to make me feel better.
• Tuesday was long, I traveled all morning on top of still having a lingering headache and getting a head cold.  We had a team meeting that afternoon followed by a mandatory happy hour.  I wasn't feeling fantastic and called it quits by 9pm.
• Wednesday was tough.  The meeting was quite good but the cold had kicked in.  I also spilled a whole cup of coffee on my laptop rendering it useless.  Mandatory work family fun that afternoon was a crazy scavenger hunt that had you running all over the "square" where our hotel was located.  It was good fun but I ended up eating a whole jalapeño for one of the challenges.  No bueno.
• Wednesday night, I was all hopped up on cold meds and went to the dinner/drinks event at a piano bar.  Things were all kinds of fun and crazy but I was home and in bed by 11:30.  Being old catches up with you fast.
• Thursday more meetings, more travel, and some changes.  I'm going to be going to Lincoln to get some add'l trng for my job and do some networking with mgmt.  I'll get all the overtime I want and I'm hoping some good experiences.
• Friday was vehicle maintenance and getting my new computer sorted out.  I saw an ortho doc and got an official diagnosis of plantar fascitis.  I went to a great local shoe store and got some insoles to try out.  I'm not crazy about the idea of wearing a splint to bed or physical therapy.  I don't have time for the therapy right now so I hope the other 2 options help me out.
• Friday night up to my man's house and we've been shacked up together since.  It's been so nice just being lazy and taking it slow for a change.  I keep joking he's got to meet all my needs since I won't see him again until we go to Vegas in 11 days.  Although he did the time math and if he leaves work early enough we'll have time for some pre-flight nookie!
• Friday/Early Saturday morning I took to the couch!  He actually pushed me out of bed twice!  He's never done that, but his bed is a queen, mine's a king.  I made myself a nice little nest on his couch and got a couple hours sleep before he woke me up.  I have never seen him feel or look so guilty.  To make up for it, he went to the local bakery and got me donuts and coffee for breakfast.  Yes I am that spoiled and I love every second of it.
• Yesterday, being the supportive girlfriend I am, I let him study for several hours while I watched shows on HBO and Hulu.  I wasn't pushy, I wasn't needy and turns out he may have just as high of a sex drive as I do.  I've really been working at backing off and I have to say I think he's responding in a very positive way.  I didn't even push the issue when he fell asleep at 9pm while watching a movie in bed.  Sometimes doing nothing can be very exhausting.
• Today is going to be more of the same.  He made me breakfast and now is working on a paper.  I'm still in bed, and I think I might take a bit of a cat nap.  Our only hint of plans is possibly taking in a movie tonight, but I'm pretty sure it'll be on his couch and not in a theater.  
• When I signed on to this whole relationship ideology this is exactly what I had in mind!