700 miles is a LONG ways to drive and I did it in 10 hrs. Yes I drive fast, no I don't want to hear your lecture. I saw nothing remarkable to note today. I was so focused on getting to this hotel room ASAP. I'm not sure why but I feel like every bit of sleep I've ever missed caught up with me this afternoon in KS. I am wiped.
I'm not a big talk while you drive person. I didn't make one call today and that's ok. I exchanged a handful of texts and I'm ok with that too. I spent most of the day wrapped up in my own thoughts, trying to decide/decipher how the people I left fit into my life. I know I wrote about this last night but it just keeps coming into mind.
The BFF left me a message today wanting to know more details and honestly I don't have any. I'm starting to feel like my life is a random version of Sex and the City season 6. Particularly where Carrie takes a lover, then decides to go to France with him. I chose H as my lover, TX was us dating and now we are to the point where he'd ask me to go to France, but instead of France it'll probably be some crappy state like Missouri and my friends cannot stop asking questions. At this point I feel like Carrie when she said no more questions. I don't want to talk about it anymore. I cannot predict the future so I really don't know what's going to happen. I hope it doesn't end like Carrie and the Russian did, but then again Big saved the day. Only I don't have a Big to come save me. Either way I'm done. I need to process before I can start talking about it anymore.
For now I'm going to go to sleep. Or at least I hope I can fall asleep. Last night I had some very rowdy neighbors and was awoken at 2:30 and 4. Tonight the hotel appears to be very quiet and I've got my room icicle cold and Failure to Launch just started. I'm gonna burrow in my covers and shut down.
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