Ego Maniac

Today I gave a lot of thought to egos.  Not particularly mine, but those of men who surround me.  H has one to end all others, as does Clint, even my mentee Brad.  They all need constant attention and after 3 days of being away from them I don't miss it at all.  As I was driving to get groceries today I realized they are all the babies of the family, all raised by women (mom, grandma, several older sisters etc) and all HUGE momma's boys.  I think I may have found a "type" I'm not attracted to.  Sure each of them can draw a certain amount of physical attraction, but damn, emotionally they might be more damaged than me.  Each of them appears to also be commitment-aholics.  Not a one of them could ever count more than 6 months of not being attached to some woman.  As I type this is dawns on me that my friend David falls into this category as well.  We've both openly admitted we have potential to be a great couple, but eventually I would tire of him.  The only pattern David doesn't have is that his mother passed away some time ago, but I know he was still a momma's boy.  The other difference is that he doesn't need a relationship per se, but is always looking for someone to "date."  HUH this is a bit fascinating to me.  I wonder if I keep working at this how many other men I know fall into this category.

I know that I am a dominant personality so the ease of manipulating men isn't that appealing to me.  Sure I like getting my way, but I want to fight for it every once in a while.  I want someone who challenges me and feeds my ego equally.  I don't want to be the one constantly feeding someone else, unless it's cookies and banana bread.

I have to say I thoroughly enjoyed my first day at rest, even though I had one meeting.  It was easy peasy so I don't mind.  It makes my meeting on Wed easier.  The rest of the day I spent pinning and putting off making any of the items I've pinned.  I'm smart like that.  Tomorrow starts off with another meeting and then a trip to the Dr.  I'm finally getting my knee checked out from when I drunkenly fell 5 weeks ago.  I finally had to admit that the pain is getting worse instead of going away like I had hoped. I know I'll need an MRI, so here's hoping to quick appts and answers.  My biggest concern is that I'll need some sort of surgery to fix whatever is wrong.  Sure I like being off work, but if I'm off I want to be able to move and enjoy my time.  Surgery will mean no driving as it's my right knee, and no driving means no baby time!  BOOOOOO!  I'm thinking only happy thoughts until I get results.  My best worst case scenario is some physical therapy :)