What if?

Last night when I was trying to sleep, but listening to my extremely loud neighbors talk/yell at each other I started to think What if?

What if . . .
I quit letting food control me
I started to value myself
I started to work out
I cared about who cares about me
I don't value myself on being mean and powerful
I just changed it all

Is it really that easy?  I've really started to wonder if I can stop being so destructive and start being better. To start being nicer, and more polite and really simply better.  I know every change is hard but why not start.  Why am i being so lazy and apathetic?  It takes 21 days to make something a habit.  I can do one at time but I don't.  I've managed to keep my blog going so why I can't I work out before I blog?  Why can't I commit to one caffeine drink a day?  Why do I cheat on my non-existent diet?

So many why's and not enough doing!  My change has to start.  Only I can control my destiny.  Tomorrow I work late and tonight I'm going out.  Tomorrow I can have just one caffeine.  Tomorrow I can start, tomorrow it can be different and I won't look back.  Tomorrow . . .