Sins

Today a lot of discussion was given to sinning.  I'm not an overly religious person nor are the people who are near me, but I'm pretty sure I'll be going to hell if there is one.  In our discussion the 7 deadly sins were mentioned.  It would appear I live my life according to the sins instead of ignoring them.  Sloth, gluttony, greed, lust, pride, envy, and wrath.  I feel like I encounter every sin every day and instead of avoing the sin, I take it head on.  I should really look into changing my ways.  Then I wonder how fun my life would be.

The topic that lead into sinning was cheating.  This is a huge part of my job even though it shouldn't be.  When people travel for extensive periods it would appear vows and promises are forgotten.  I can think of a handful of co-workers who have not succombed to temptation.  I am not one of those people.  My ex turned me into his other woman and I knowingly slept with a married man this year.  This is a bad bad pattern I've accepted as ok.  I've been caught in this cycle since I was 24 and cannot seem to get away from it.

Commitment is the bane of my existence and in my sick justification I'd rather be on this side than the other one. i really do need to work on accepting myself as being good enough.  I don't need to be cast off and just accept being someone's second thought.  As cheesy as it is I need to accept that I am worthy of being loved.  I wish I could struggle with this less.  Instead I'm constantly reminded and tempted at work.

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