Finally Friday

How Happy is this baby!

This week felt like it was never ending.  One more day, 11 more hours to go and I can put this craptastic week to end.  H pointed out today that something isn't right with me.  He's very right, but I can't quite put my finger on it.  I talked to my Sue-Bee tonight and I still don't have an answer but a big part of it is reality.

The reality of having a travel based job. Of not being able to settle down, because who's gonna put up with a significant other being gone 6 months a year.  The reality that my job is a bit of a dead end.  I can't go back home and work because there is nothing there for me.  So I try to get promoted and after 2 years it's been endless hoop jumping and still no interview.  The reality that I have 3 of the cutest babies at home growing up without me.  It's really not ok for them to only see me every 28 days for a handful of hours.  I'm missing milestones and I have no choice.  The reality that I have no choice in my job.  I go where they tell me, I stay where they tell me, I drive what they tell me.  The control has become overwhelming as of late.

I'm going to call it a night before I sink my self further into the funk I'm already in.  I keep saying tomorrow has to be better.  And one of these days it will.