Halp! Halp!

Somehow my very cute nephew got himself stuck in the chair.  The video I was sent is him sitting very calmly and very nicely saying halp, halp!  He's just too cute for words.  Stuck but very cute being stuck.

In other news I feel like shouting HALP HALP!  The crush is no longer a crush, every day I spend with him I feel like baby shaking him.  He's having a very difficult time due to his ex and it's affecting him in all ways.  I cannot fix him, I cannot make him feel better, all I can due is try to be comforting.  I listen as best I can but want to scream just stop!  It's like he's marinating in self pity and I will not give in to his pity party ways.  His energy is so unsettled I have a hard time even being near him.  He makes me feel unsettled and I shouldn't.

So this means for me I feel like crap.  I fell hard for him, had the build up in my head, and now it's a total let down.  I don't have any other options in the office and I really value his friendship but for now I need to push him away.  It's affected me so largely that everyone around me can feel it.  I don't want to explain it so everyone just thinks I'm focused and being bitchy.  I have a hard time carrying my own demons let alone those of someone else.

It's so hard to be let down.  It doesn't help my mood or my depression.  I've had the give up feeling this week very badly.  I just don't care about work, about friendships, about anything really.  I hate that I let this happen.  This is why I prefer to be an emotional robot.  This is why I like to ignore guys, or just lust from afar.  It's so much easier to never get close enough to get hurt.  This is why I'm home alone on a Sat night eating chinese food and watching a bad romantic comedy.