RAWR

Today was an anxiety filled day.  After numerous IM's to my Sue-Bee and calls to my mom I finally feel a little better.  A big part of it is this whole job situation.  I've decided to post, I just want to review my profile one more time before I do.  Another part is I have 1 more week til home and I'm not sure I can make it.  I'm so ready for down time.  

The last and biggest anxiety filled notion is the pool on Sunday.  I have a swimsuit but I hate it.  I feel like a giant grape.  It's a great suit I just hate the way I look.  I almost feel like I need to lose weight to wear it and that is not my philosophy.  I've made it the last 2 weeks in a t-shirt and shorts, but I don't want horrible tan lines.  I went on a mad dash to Lane Bryant tonight and scored a great tankini and then target for some bottoms.  I love what I got and I hope I feel better tomorrow.  

I'm still a bit stressed as this will be the first Sunday H is coming.  I realized I'll get to see him topless :)  It makes me giggle typing that but hey a girl's curious.  His arms in a polo shirt are enough for me to drool so I'm sure seeing his pecs will probably lead to me drowning.  At least I can fight back with a little something for him.  My new suit top has no shortage of cleavage.  Good thing I bought SPF 50!  Don't wanna burn the girls.

Tonight is the first in several I haven't worked out.  I did however manage to walk 2 miles in high heels so I think that counts for something.  My legs and calves are killing me today.  I'll take a night off and try to hit it hard tomorrow and Saturday.  I'm finding that 4 days on 3 off is not working for me.  I'm going to try 3 on 1 off 2 on 1 off.  I feel like this will be better for me and my body.  I'm just starting to see some results. 3 people have commented I look slimmer but I've yet to lose a pound.  I think the bloat and water weight are gone and that helps.  I've even noticed it is helping me manage my stress.  Mainly because I go completely blank the whole time I do my DVD's.  So mental health improving, physical health improving.  YAY me.

Now I'm going to listen to my Lionel Ritchie Country album.  Yes you read that right and yes it's kicking some major butt!