Rage against the Office

I want to be as happy as a toddler with bubbles

Because I wanna be a dinosaur, ok?!

As I predicted today was not much better than yesterday.  I realized too late into the day that I hadn't taken allergy meds, annoying girl was so annoying I got a migraine, and the boys were very needy with work stuff.  I love to help but DANG!  I got practically nothing done today.

Then after lunch the irrational rage started to creep in.  I'd spent most of the day not communicating with anyone because I knew I'd say hurtful things.  Mainly that was for their benefit, particularly H.  He started his day off with me on the wrong foot.  1st he asked me to coordinate a night out, 2nd he got mad when I told him no and 3rd I wasn't going.  I want to go home on Thursday feeling good, not like crap.  I quickly stopped talking to him when I realized he just wanted me to do his bidding.

On my last break I went to see him as I normally do.  I was hoping he'd make me laugh or feel just a bit better.  Instead I was so mad I was seeing spots.  Turns out his "friend" that's been in town all weekend has potential to be more than a friend.  I still wonder if they didn't fool around, I'd say I'm 80% positive they did.  It's a shame the girl doesn't know this and is 14 yrs his junior.  He also confessed that she was in town mainly to see him.  AND he could see them dating but he's still not quite ready.

Sooooooooo all this extra attention towards me was a cover up.  A way of buttering me up apparentlty.  I think I finally figured him out.  He plays the broken boy, all sad and tragic over his last break up.  Puts every girl in the friend zone, knowing that he has some level of attraction to them.  THEN once he's ready he'll have several to choose from.  Now I could be wrong, but I'm pretty sure this is his mojo and I'm pretty sure I've been classified as a fixer upper.

THEN he starts in on the whole you live in my world bullshit.  I am just sooooo over him.  It's time for him to live in MY world.  And guess what, it holds a whole lotta pain for him.  I'm so happy I only have 14 more hours of work before I go home.  I cannot function in this drama anymore.  It's funny with this job you always want what you don't have.  Right now I'd love to not have a social life, instead of the overwhelming drama filled one I have.  I'm sure this summer I'll regret that when I'm working remotely and very alone.  

For now I focus on home and all the fun I'm going to have.  Babies look out, Aunty wants lots of kisses!