YUCK

Today was not the most fun.  I finally had all the info to figure out my finances.  Turns out I'm in debt way deeper than I thought.  I need a miraculous amount of money to pull me out.  Instead I will chip away at it as fast as I can.

Trading in my truck is the first step.  I am so so so torn over this.  I love my truck, however I hate my monthly payment and the gas!  Nothing is ever going to be good enough, unless I can afford the Lexus SUV I am lusting after.  So instead I test drove a small SUV and I didn't loathe it.  It's in my price range and it's got all the bells and whistles minus a sunroof.  I'm not crazy about no roof, but broke is as broke does/can afford.

Tomorrow will consist of phone calls to the credit union and bargaining with the car dealer.  I've found the exact same vehicle for almost $2k less, but I don't want to purchase from a dealer in the cities.  I'm hoping for a bit of a reduction.

In other yucky news I realized my mom doesn't talk to me unless it concerns my niece.  This finally dawned on me this morning reading an email from her.  She doesn't even put up false pretense to ask me how I am or what I have planned, it was straight to her visit with her granddaughter, who lives 1/2 mile away from me.  This really really bothers me.  My mom and I have always been close but this baby is her only focus.  I'm not sure why she's so obsessed.  It's not like Chelsea's going anywhere.  My sister invited me down as well but I just couldn't bear it.  My mom is not normal when she's near that baby.  I really want to baby-shake her!

Instead of going to visit I chose to stay home and watch Big Bang.  Oh Sheldon in lederhosen!