Scorpio (10/23-11/21)
Put yourself in the service of someone or something else today. Step outside of yourself and put your own needs on the back burner. Right now you'll get a valuable life lesson if you put your efforts into something that is bigger than yourself or your lifestyle. Plus, helping to solve the problems of other people will help take your mind off of your own problems -- which is always nice, right? Distraction isn't always such a bad thing, especially if other people benefit from it.
Today I really did put myself in the service of someone else. My friend Kati and I cleaned out her closet. And I mean CLEANED!!! Apparently purging her items made me feel better. We had a great day of talking and cleaning. She has a crazy family unit and really helped me deal with mine. The photo only shows 1 of 3 piles!
I had a dinner and a movie date with my mom today. I told her a little of how I'm feeling because I just don't know that telling her the full extent will help me feel better. Turns out she had her own meltdown 2 weeks ago. The parties involved have since apologized to her but it's hard to turn off the hurt and forgive. Neither my mom or I are really forgive and forget people.
Today I just feel more like me. I'm still sad and confused and really unsure about my feelings; but I have to keep moving forward. Time heals all pain and I need to be patient. I've only cried once today and that was due to a movie not because of how I felt. I still have this weird hollow feeling in my chest. That's something new and I hope to fill it with love for myself and friends. They mean the world to me, they are my family!
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