This has stuck with me for a couple days now. I spend a majority of my life with 3 people under the age of 3, the BFF and my sister. Since 3 can't talk, very well, I have to rely on 3 others, my Sue-bee, Clint and my mom. I've realized for a couple of days now that I really need to work on my inner monologue and how I let these 5 influence me. I would do anything for any one of them, and I know 4 of them would do the exact same back to me. The 5th one, well he's getting phased out. I may talk to him everyday, but it's in a way of not really saying anything. I find that not asking questions keeps my blood pressure at a much more manageable level, and my life isn't missing anything without knowing.
A big realization came today on IM while working. 2 of my co-workers messaged me to ask about the new job and how I was doing with all my free time. Genuinely interested in my life, and I in theirs. It's funny how a series of events can lead you away from what really matters, a solid friendship that can come and go as easily as a breeze.
I'm going to focus on on my original 5. The twins already know to love and miss me, and they can vocalize it. Chels gives me kisses and a nice head tilt I love you! Funny how a 13 month old gives me more love and affection than many others in my life. Now if I could just figure out how to get myself a John Ross Ewing. The way he says darlin makes me melt into my couch!
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