Reminders

My sister is a very focused person.  If she and her husband want something they work to attain it.  They don't dwell on the past and constantly move forward.  Their family is known as Team Ingram, their motto is never settle.  They are teaching Chelsea to lead this exact life and I know she'll never want or struggle for it.

I don't have the same drive.  I work very hard to get what I want, but I don't have a partner reassuring me, or a cute baby to push me to do more.  I have me, and sometimes I'm very lazy and look for excuses.  Lately I've been focusing on the past, on the issues not having my dad around caused me to develop.  Today I did a lot of cooking and baking, all the while thinking that I just need to move forward.  I can't forgive or forget, but I can forge on.  I need to forge on with who I want to be.  If he wants to treat me like crap well that's up to him, I'm going to move on with my life.

Tonight I called my mom to wish them a safe trip out West to see my aunt.  She was her normal amount of crazy and I made some comment about my dad still being an ass.  She said she didn't think he was, so I sarcastically said "he must be directing his asshole-ness towards me instead."  She honestly said, "I guess so, he's been nice to me."  Yep, they all think I'm the one who's over reacting to how he treated me on Saturday.  No one is taking my side or even asking my side of the story.  I guess that's my cue to move forward.  I need to keep on my path and not worry about what they think or don't think.