Worry some Wednesday

Her response when you say "Love you Chelsea!"

mmmmm coooookie

Today was not the greatest of days.  Yesterday no traffic, today 45 min late.  Just threw my whole day off.  Then I found out I can leave early.  Yay, but not until Friday.  I asked to leave today and was given a very politically correct answer and was told no.  Soooo I'll go shopping and pack tomorrow.  I plan on being to the office on Friday by 7am and first in line to check out at 8am.  Then it's a 12 hour drive to Rockford IL.  I figure it best to get around Chicago later in the evening than to risk a morning.  Although it's Saturday when I hit it, so maybe not.  I need to some more mapping before I decide for sure.  All this is great, but I still have to be gone next week, heading to Lincoln to hang out with the boss and get all my new equipment.  Then hopefully a little quiet time over the holidays!

Last night my goal was 10am bedtime but of course that didn't happen.  The men in my life are stressing me out!  Clint decides he's maybe an alcoholic and the ex starts in on me driving to Long Island to drink with him and spend the night.  When I said no he started in on me not spending any time with him blah blah blah.  Clint hit the nail on the head when he said most men go back to what they know.  I'm what he knows and he knows I don't say no.  Thank goodness I'm 1.5 hrs away from him because last night I wanted to punch him!

I talked to the BFF today and I think she's ready to fly out here and punch the ex.  I can't blame her, but for some reason I cannot find it in me to tell him off.  This is very uncharacteristic of me, I really don't have a problem expressing myself.  After much discussion I think it's because I know it won't do any good.  He won't listen, or he'll just let me cool off and start back in acting like nothing happened.  I just have to let it be and get out of here ASAP.  He's very much out of sight out of mind for me!  I'm ready to go home and start my new life of being normal.