Case of the Mondays

That's her angry face!

BooBoo and some frozen peaches

We all have our comfort items!

What a full day.  Started out with an intense meeting about re-working my interview opener.  Then moved into my new role of siding locator.  Before I knew it, 3pm was on me.  I ran out and did some errands: BOGO at Ulta for Butter nail polish then Walmart.  Now I hate Walmart but I had to cave in an attempt to quench my craving for Biscoff.  I'll be damned if that Walmart isn't the nicest one I've ever been in!  Clean, orderly, friendly staff and simply lovely.  Now the clientele leaves a lot to be desired.  Twice I almost hit the same kid because he wasn't paying a bit of attention.  The second time his mom really got after him, she said "I should have let her hit you."  Nice parenting moment right there.

Once I got back about 5pm my motivation was really waning and Clint was super whining.  I completed a couple more referrals and kept him from killing the kid who sits on the other side of the cube wall from him.  He gets one more day to shape up, after that it's been a week.  I don't even PMS for that long.  He told me he intends to take a mental health day this week and if he doesn't I'm driving up there and forcing him to.

So the worst part of today was actually over night.  I couldn't fall asleep last night and once I finally did it was after 2am.  Then I had some horrible dreams.  The scariest one was based on some real events.  In the dream I was in bed with Clint in his room in MD and he's raping me.  The worst part is I try to yell for help and he starts to choke me!  In the dream he chokes me until I pass out, eventually I wake up and he's laying asleep next to me.  At this point in real life I woke up.  I was so shaken by the clarity of the dream that I couldn't really fall asleep.  

I told Clint only about him choking me, I felt he didn't need to know the rest.  He's possibly THE most mild mannered man I've ever met.  He hates conflict and confrontation and isn't a fighter at all, very much a lover.  He's been shocked all day and even went so far as to help me figure out why I would dream that.  I didn't eat any trigger foods or drinks, no weird TV just football all day, no crazy books or magazines.  I cannot figure out why I would dream this.

The BFF is just as confused as me and she knows the whole story.  I did look up rape and choking in my dream dictionary.  Rape is foretelling that a woman will have troubles which will wound her pride and her lover will be estranged.  Also symbolizes being violated in some way.  Choking is suppressing feelings; you have difficulties in showing your fear anger or love.  I'm not really sure what this is all in relation too.  I don't really feel like any of that is applicable to me.

Tonight I'm having a horrible evening with my lady parts.  I hate my period and right now I'm in my mood of sex vodka cigarettes and more sex.  It's a horrible feeling because none of those things make me feel better, but my cravings for them are soooo strong.  I'm struggling watching football tonight because all I hear is innuendo and all I see is tight pants.  Here's hoping a good nights sleep cures all that ails me.