Disappointment

My mother's voice has been echoing in my head all afternoon.  "I love you, but I'm very disappointed in you right now."  Clint will be home on Thursday, my last day in Lincoln.  When I mentioned going out he said he didn't think I'd want to, since I have to drive home the next day.  Then he gave me a BS line about his other 2 girls needing attention.  I mentioned I should pull rank, since I don't LIVE in Lincoln and he changed the subject.

So I've been stewing about it all day.  I've got a wicked case of PMS and have been eating cheetos and writing scathing text messages in my head all afternoon.  I had a feeling that this would all happen and I'm relieved it's sooner rather than later.  I wanted him to be different and not take this path, but I knew being on his home turf would ruin that.  There are always things you know will be true and yet you choose to ignore them.  Much like 15 min of fame, I wanted 15 min of attention.  Now I have to be strong and keep my resolve.  Maybe with both of us being at home, things will cool off again.  Or maybe I just work really hard to focus on home and family and the happiness I have here.

Chelsea's new theme, put a bow on it!

Sunday served up family style

Do NOT like this bow!

BUT I wore this one forever

Sometimes you mess with a cat when he's being an asshole.

Today was super duper fun.  Family lunch at my sister's house and then fun time with the baby.  She's just the best.  I know I keep saying it, but she really is.  She only cried at the bow and that was cause we were laughing so hard at her.  After a delicious lunch, made by mom, sissy and I did a little Christmas shopping.  I realized everything I had ordered for my mom may not make it.  I still haven't received a confirmation of my order and that terrifies me.  Back up gifts have been purchased.  

Tonight I got a little more one on one time with BooBoo.  She's just so fun!  We said hi to the kitties, tilted our head to the side which means "I love you", played with bows, and danced to all the singing toys.  Just the best!  I'm so happy next week is the last time I should have to leave for a while.  I don't want to miss anymore fun with her.

Executive decisions

No socks ever!  Except at Aunties house.  Left them on the whole time, got in the car, off they went!

Ahh the love of siblings!

So last night I hadn't even made it out of Chicago and I made the decision to drive all the way through to home.  It was a 20 hr day, 18 of it spent in the van.  I was exhausted when I pulled in at 1am, but I was out like a light by 2am!  I got a glorious 10 hrs of sleep in my own bed.  It was super super worth it.

Today I spent the time unpacking, doing laundry and catching up on the DVR.  Team Ingram came over for a bit and I got to play with Booboo.  She's so freaking cute, I cannot believe how much she's changed in just 2 weeks.  I'm happy I get to go see her tomorrow too.  Apparently my mom's making lunch and bringing it to my sis's house (side note no one told me until about an hour ago).  I love this arrangement!  1/10th of a mile from home and I get my mom's home cooking.  And we get to celebrate sissy's birthday!  Good times all around.

Tonight it's more DVR time and I'm going to work on printing some of my photos for my SMASH book.  I brought it with to NY but never touched it.  Time to get moving on it.

Wasting Away

My Daddy dressed me today!

Today was a waste of day work wise, but it doesn't matter.  New job, don't have to work 6 hours minimum.  I've already worked 40 hrs this week so it's all OT.  Yay me.  Christine and I went to the mall, had a lovely lunch at PF Changs.  Came back and worked a couple hours, then a trip to Target, a failed attempt at mailing home her ladder and then Mexican for dinner.  We had to hit up Target because it's cheaper to buy new socks than do laundry around here!

I already loaded up the van so I have a nice evening of chillin out ahead of me.  Big Bang was pretty funny and I'm sure all my other shows are re-runs, but that's ok, might just go to bed early.  I have to be to the office by 7am.  My boss has me lined up first to check out and I really really want to be first in line for tech support check out.  I've got 12 hours to drive after I get done in the office, it's a long drive but only 6 hours to home the next morning.  The sooner I get out the sooner I get through Chicago and to my hotel room!  

Now it's time for some pinning.  I've got to get some new recipes for Christmas.

Worry some Wednesday

Her response when you say "Love you Chelsea!"

mmmmm coooookie

Today was not the greatest of days.  Yesterday no traffic, today 45 min late.  Just threw my whole day off.  Then I found out I can leave early.  Yay, but not until Friday.  I asked to leave today and was given a very politically correct answer and was told no.  Soooo I'll go shopping and pack tomorrow.  I plan on being to the office on Friday by 7am and first in line to check out at 8am.  Then it's a 12 hour drive to Rockford IL.  I figure it best to get around Chicago later in the evening than to risk a morning.  Although it's Saturday when I hit it, so maybe not.  I need to some more mapping before I decide for sure.  All this is great, but I still have to be gone next week, heading to Lincoln to hang out with the boss and get all my new equipment.  Then hopefully a little quiet time over the holidays!

Last night my goal was 10am bedtime but of course that didn't happen.  The men in my life are stressing me out!  Clint decides he's maybe an alcoholic and the ex starts in on me driving to Long Island to drink with him and spend the night.  When I said no he started in on me not spending any time with him blah blah blah.  Clint hit the nail on the head when he said most men go back to what they know.  I'm what he knows and he knows I don't say no.  Thank goodness I'm 1.5 hrs away from him because last night I wanted to punch him!

I talked to the BFF today and I think she's ready to fly out here and punch the ex.  I can't blame her, but for some reason I cannot find it in me to tell him off.  This is very uncharacteristic of me, I really don't have a problem expressing myself.  After much discussion I think it's because I know it won't do any good.  He won't listen, or he'll just let me cool off and start back in acting like nothing happened.  I just have to let it be and get out of here ASAP.  He's very much out of sight out of mind for me!  I'm ready to go home and start my new life of being normal.

Testing my resolve

Ready to see Santa!

Alfie began to wonder if something was wrong with this zoo

Last night I went out with some co-workers to watch some football.  It was a good time.  Lots of beers, good food and a blow out of a game.  Earlier that afternoon we had a meeting where we were told some of us who were going to be done early in the week may be able to go home.  I fall into that category!  AND after the meeting tonight nothing has been decided and I'm out of claims tomorrow.  I could be leaving on Thursday but right now I'm not getting my hopes up.  Clint thought he was out early too, but he was told not until next Wednesday.  Either way I'm not going to see him, on the road or in Lincoln.  BOOOO!

Today was a fun day in the office, what would normally take me 20 min took almost 3 hours thanks to socializing.  I finally got to see all of my friends who are working there.  It's great to catch up and I was starting to think maybe I made the wrong choice to leave.  THEN The BFF sent me video of the Twins at their Christmas concert.  Nope, right decision made!  I'm so sad I had to miss it.  They were adorable!!!  They both danced along to their songs, and Sara had blankie on stage.  They are just the cutest toddlers around!  AND I missed their trip to see Santa.  The photos are too precious, thank goodness for Gaga and a momma who never put their phones away ;)

Tonight it's time to relax and go to bed early.  Shows are on soon, and I'm already tucked into bed.  Lights out at 10am sharp tonight.

Secret Sunday Funday

Today I made it to the outlet and the fancy mall by my hotel.  It was raining and the fog moved in so I nixed my plans to go to the Hamptons.  I'm sad I was so close but didn't go.  Oh well, maybe someday I'll be rich enough to afford a house out there.

I had a great time catching up with my friend JJ.  She's just as crazy as me, but from Iowa, so she's special ;)  We shared some secrets about who we've been dating and I was a bit shocked by her choice. I vaguely know him and don't really care for him.  He has a reputation that proceeds him, and it's not all good.  He seems to be making her happy and that's all that matters!

It's been snowing buckets at home and I'm so happy I'm not there and stuck inside!  It may be yucky here, but nothing like home.  Although I do get to miss out on someone in her lamby hat!

Enjoying the first snow of the year

AND

watching Mommy and Daddy shovel

Pottery Barn outlet (pillow cover)

BooBoo outfits from Old Navy

 My Christmas Gift froms Tori Burch