Bombs

birth-4 yrs.  I cannot believe it!

• Shit just keeps on exploding in my life and it's really bumming me out
• My dream job is out there and I can't post because I accepted a future state job.  BOOM!
• My sister was given some info to look up on my mom about her crazy, and it fits.  BOOM!
• My man is going fishing this weekend and not coming home. BOOM!
• I will likely not be going home any time soon.  BOOM!
• I'm having a real pity party for myself so I'm going to spend the afternoon picking out cute mani's so I can treat myself after work.  New nails should make me feel better, and it's helping me not emotionally eat my disappointment.

Taking a break

Boo as "The Dude"

• I know it's been a month but I needed a break.
• I had a great family vacation even though Boo got sick and they had to leave early.
• This month I've caught 2 salmon, on 17 lbs the other 7.5lbs.  I actually really enjoy being out on the boat.  Especially when it's just me and my man
• I can even rough it and sleep on the boat and shower in the marina house.  Big progress!
• Work has been slow, but it's starting to ramp back up.  I'm in Lincoln this week acting as a manager.  I think it's going to be a great learning experience.
• My family is just as crazy as ever and it's a good thing I've been gone lately.  My mother is so desperate to be happy she will do anything my sister or I do.  I feel bad as my sis deals with it a lot more than I do.  This week's copycat is diet and exercise.
• My sister's been working at this for over a month and now that my mom sees how good it is for my sis, she needs to do it too.  
• I've been mulling over different diets and plans for over 2 weeks.  The BFF is a beach body coach and all about 21 day fix but I'm not sold on it.  I thought I could be but it's not realistic with work.  I found numerous articles touting WW as the best diet, easiest diet and having the longest lasting results.  This means I need to go back, but first I have to go buy a scale for traveling.  My last one broke.  I also need to lay this out for my man.  I know he'll be supportive but I don't know if I can get him to commit with me.  He's made some baby steps so that really makes me happy.
• I'm watching Extreme Weight Loss, I've never watched before and it has freaking Donald Driver on the episode.  I'd do anything he asked me to.  I will always bleed green and gold!
• Oh and I got to go to Lambeau for a shareholders meeting.  That place is just magic.  My man couldn't stop commenting on how happy I was inside the stadium.  I HAVE to get tickets to a game this year.

Bragging!

I WANT this.  My man and I say this to each other all the time

A lovely rainbow from last night.

• I'm finally home and it's amazing.  
• Yesterday my Boo told her mommy "I want my wibby back"  Guess who unpacked at the speed of sound and booked it over to see her before she went to bed.  She was just darling and has easily grown 2 inches since I saw her 3 weeks ago.
• My man came to see me in Madison over the weekend and we had such a good time.  He got to meet my coworker Mike and even played a little nookie hooky on Monday to spend another night with me.  I was pretty sure he was missing me hard core.
• Fast forward to last night.  I got in my car and saw some parts boxes.  I assumed he dropped them off to fix it this week.  Nope! Turns out that he missed me so bad that first weekend he came to my house.  He fixed my botched attempt at putting pulls on my kitchen drawers, he replaced my broken toilet seat AND he replaced the air filter and spark plugs in my Jeep.  The real kicker is he rotated my tires, but that involved driving back to his house (140 miles round trip and getting gas).  When I called him that evening he was actually on my couch watching the race, instead of at home like I had thought.  
• His attention to details and completing my imaginary honey-do list are fantastic.  Big time keeper.
• He admitted last night that he missed me pretty badly.  We've agreed that 2 weeks is our max to be apart and he doesn't even want to deal with that.  New job starts Oct 14 and it cannot come fast enough.  I'll be working NW WI and that's just perfect for us.
• Up next is vacation!  I'll be up north for 7 days then we are driving to Green Bay to fish for the weekend with my man's family.  Nearly 10 days of fun, food, fishing and family and a complete lack of technology.  Ultimate relaxation begins in 2.5 days!

Kickin' it SD style (again)

• I have my boyfriend and sister on red alert for those oreos!
• I've been to Omaha and now Sioux Falls in 7 days.  I have 1 more day of work and I"m exhausted.  The good news is I should be going home Wednesday, unless my boss finds somewhere else to send me
• Tonight is the first night in 9 days that I've had to myself.  I ordered Pizza Hut, drank a huge gatorade and am looking at Pinterest.  
• I'm also watching Marriage Bootcamp Celebrity edition. This show is so awful and addictive.  I soooo needed this me time!
• My man is off with his dad and brother this weekend getting the boat set up for salmon season. It's basically his Christmas morning all weekend.  He's so excited!  It makes me happy he's so passionate about things.
• 2 more weeks to vacation and I cannot wait.  Family, no electronics, lake, sunshine and sleep!

Monkey see, Monkey Fail

• I've made monkey bread dozens of times with fabulous results.  This morning, not so much!
• Rolls actually fell off and were burning, the inside was raw :(
• Note, do NOT use Texas sized rolls, they do not work.  Lesson learned
• This was still edible and my man and I ate the cooked edges.
• PMS has totally kicked my ass this weekend and I've been in a horrible mood.  Today seems to be better and I'm excited to spend it with my man and have a family fish fry tonight.  The boys caught 80+ pan fish yesterday.
• Time to go get cleaned up and stop watching Bar Rescue.  This show just sucks me in!

The Beard . . .

• My man found this on Facebook, turns out it's an actual group, and it's hilarious.  Go ahead, search it.  I'll be here when you get back.
• A huge inside joke with my man and I is having "the sex."  It started a couple months ago when I was a little too tired and asked if we would be having "the sex" that night.  It stuck and now I always ask in that matter.  Cracks both of us up.
• I have to admit that I totally played hooky today.  It's a gorgeous day outside and I needed a sleep in, "the sex" and to get shit done at home!
• So far I have a new cable internet connection that's so super speedy it makes me deliriously happy.
• My washing machine has a new lid, the old one was actually cracked and not rusted out.
• My dishwasher works again!  No more squealing noises, turns out it wasn't installed great and needed to be adjusted.  Oh and I broke a wheel off my top rack.  Had no clue on that one but it'll be fixed next week.
• I've also dusted, vacuumed and mopped.  Up next is cleaning the inside of my car.  So gross an much needed.
• Oh and I did some food prep, looked up a new chicken salad recipe and made some brats for nights when I'm lazy I can take them out of the freezer and having something decent to eat in minutes!
• I'll end today on a funny.  Last night my man and I decided to walk to the DQ.  (and yes we know this is why we are fat)  What I didn't know is that my man is an idiot and put on scented lotion before we left.  We were covered in mosquitoes the whole time!  The walk was quite enjoyable, the bugs not so much, even after a shower I still felt them on me.  Moral of the story, walk earlier in the evening and no lotion beforehand.  The End!

It's Hard Finding Time

I started this blog to help me deal with life, journal out all I was feeling and have a digital keepsake of my darling nieces and nephew.  Now, I'm starting to wonder if I need to continue.  I get fewer photos of the kids as they get older, I have a wonderful man in my life and I respect his privacy and my time is becoming more and more precious.

Two of my biggest blogging inspirations have recently made statements about the hardships faced with being very well known bloggers.  One is on the verge of having a 2nd very much wanted baby and the other is going through a very difficult separation from her husband.  Such huge life events, with public audience.  I've been following them both for 5+ yrs and feel like I know them, but again I question if I could handle that same pressure.  I'm not going to apologize for withdrawing a bit from what I share, but I will keep sharing.

This blog has brought me to such a positive happy spot and I want to share only that with you.  Right now I'm so head over heels in love I can hardly stand myself :)  I only want to spend time with my man, but I know it's very unrealistic.  I've been lucky that work has kept me home, but I'm sure it will end.  His boating season is about to begin and hail is only a jet stream away.  Life is good no matter how I slice it and I feel like I've become the person I've always wanted to be.

And now, because I can, some cute freakin' kids!