Meh Meh Meh

Work is boring.  That is all.  There was a fire drill this morning and I took that as a sign to leave and shop.  I had a great time, and went to Ulta and Sally.  While in Sally what did I find, nail wheels!  Oh that's right, my inner OCD, type A, psycho self is jumping up and down with joy.  I could not wait to get back to my hotel and swatch my gel polishes.  Above is my finished product, it's a horrible photo as you can't discern any of the colors, but oh it makes me happy.  I cannot wait to get home tomorrow night and sort and swatch what I currently have.  Some of you might be surprised at how many I have, others, well, you know me, you know I like polish!  I think I've decided to go by colors and not brands.  It makes more sense to me and hopefully I don't have any duplicates!

1 more sleep til home!

More Meh

I wish I woke up this happy!

This little sign has me doing some really big thinking.  It's deep and complex and I'm afraid 100% true.

Meh

Girlfriend is a big fan of real food!

Today was just a nothing day.  I didn't get much accomplished, then again I didn't have much to do.  I couldn't even tell you what I did this morning other than waste time.  This afternoon the guys came in so I had some claims to review and things to fax/file.  

I talked to Clint this morning and his ex should be out of his house by this weekend.  This is excellent news for him, but I'm pretty sure they are still sleeping together.  I guess he needs to take baby steps to get her fully out of his system.  I'm so curious how this will all play out.  He's still very set on coming up to see me once I get home.  I'm really not sure why, it's not like I live in a metropolis with lots to do.

The other fun is listening to my sister whine about her mother in law.  The woman is a real piece of work, English people are weird.  Even my mom commented on her strangeness.  She doesn't really converse, just whisper to my bro in law.  I'm starting to understand why he was socially stunted when he met my sister.  The bad thing is that he's reverting to the same old habits and killing my sister slowly.  I hope this week goes by quickly and their life returns to normal.

Now it's time for some Funny TV.  I really like the new CBS line up.  Can't wait for some 2 Broke Girls.  I'm not sure who I like most on there Max or Sophie.  They both crack me up!

Not so funday Sunday

Sliding is FUN!

BooBoo and her Alfie!

Today I took to my bed.  I couldn't sleep when I got home last night so I stayed up and watched more Weeds until 3am.  That resulted in me sleeping until noon and then not getting out of bed until 4pm.  It was 80 and sunny out today and wanted none of it.  I got on Facebook and was reminded it was my ex's birthday.  So I was kind and sent him a post, THEN I saw he'd also proposed.  Insert giant punch to the gut.  I should be happy for him, but all I can think is why wasn't I good enough?  I know he's not my "one", but the rejection still stings.  It's bothered me all day and I really can't shake it.

Last night I was discussing with the guys how they met their wives.  Every single one of them had really cute stories.  Matt, in particular, shared that after 6 yrs of not dating he decided he was ready for a commitment and 2 weeks later met his wife through a mutual friend.  This has stuck with me all day.  I think I'm ready to date to have a boyfriend and then someone says something like that to me.  It makes me think I'm still not ready.  Commitment is a word that scares me and I'm about 55% open to it.  I'm getting better at it, but it still scares me.

Sue and I have been talking about this tonight via text.  Last night all I could think about was H and how he was my person.  He's the one who picks me up, takes me out, takes me home, makes sure I'm ok, gets my drinks etc.  He's my person and I was his.  I did the planning, the picking, the arranging and reserving.  I miss our non-romantical relationship.  We filled a void for each other.  Now I'm struggling with how to find someone who can meet all my needs and how I want to be in a relationship.  I think H brought me up to my 55% readiness for commitment.  I need to work on the remaining 45% by actually jumping in.  I need to cope with the rest of the package.  How to balance work, life, sex, emotions etc.  I thought I needed to be in control when I'm with someone, but H showed me that I don't.  If I'm happy and feeling taking care of I can go with the flow.  I still need to be heard and validated, but I lose my need to control every single detail.  Clint has also been a big part of that.  My trip to MD proved it to me again.  I didn't coordinate anything and had the best time.  I only had to worry about my prep and getting myself up there, the rest he handled.  Now I'm looking forward to getting home and having him come up to visit me.  I get to be the planner this time around, it's a good thing he's always up to go with the flow.

Now it's time to watch some football.  At half time my Packers are winning, which hasn't been expected.  I'm super excited and I hope this momentum carries into the second half.  GO PACK GO!!

No visitors

Pancakes!

The ET finger kills me, it's like her version of a fist bump

Today was so incredibly boring.  I have absolutely nothing to do.  Nada, zero, zip, zilch!  None of the guys came in, nor did they submit anything for me to review.  I watched a movie and 8 episodes of Weeds.  Overall a very productive day.

Right now I'm waiting for Matt to come pick me up and out to the RV park we go.  I'm excited for a night of relaxing and I'm sure lots of laughing.  Earl came up and is the biggest cut up I know.  Plus we won't be in an overly public place so all bets are off!  Let the good times roll.

Finally Friday

Yesterday was nothing spectacular.  I ended up chilling in my hotel bar with Brandi and her BF last night to watch the Steelers game.  This doesn't make me a fan, but I do like human interaction.  I'm so over staring at these 4 hotel room walls.

Today was spent doing pretty much nothing.  I was in the office but not much was accomplished.  It's pretty easy to manage a shut down office.  The most fun I had was planning out tomorrow night.  Everyone, all 8 of us, are heading out to the RV park for some steaks and conversation.  Should be a good time and I am in my element using my party planning skills.  My steak is purchased, dip has been made for snacking, and I have liquor for dessert grasshoppers.  I just have to get some ice cream on the way down.  The one hitch in my plan is how to get home.  I'm hoping I can get a ride from one the guys so I don't have to worry about driving.  If I do, well I guess David is having me and Earl spend the night in his camper. 

What I need to work on is toning my naughtiness down.  I super duper need to get laid, but this is not the group to be picking from.  They are all married and I am not traveling down that path anymore.  I'm going to do my best to behave.  I'm also the only staffer going so I need to control myself a bit :)

Over it

Someone gave himself a black eye

This baby loves her new carseat!

*Today I was so far in the mtns I heard banjos.  My insured had to meet me in town and I followed him out to his house.  I went 3 miles in 10 min.  I am sooooo over this place.  I miss 911 addresses and flat expanses of land with fully paved roads.

*I spent an hour on the phone with Clint this afternoon.  He's finally broken up with his girlfriend, but I don't think it's going to be too easy for him.  She's laying on the guilt pretty thick and as much as he wants to be an emotional robot, I know it tears him up inside.  It's a good thing he copes like an adult and spent the night away from home so she was panicked and calling everyone in her phone book this morning.  Partly for attention and a little bit of concern.  I am going to love hearing how this all plays out and not have to be a part of it.

*Right now my go to bed monitor has come on, but I really want to stay up and watch Nashville.  I'm gonna try my best to stay awake for all of it, it better not suck!

*I still haven't heard about my job, I even started to ask around to others who intereviewed.  No on has heard.  I'm going a bit bonkers about the whole thing.  I just want to know: yes or no!  The other job I want is posted and I have until Friday to submit my name.  Fingers crossed tomorrow is the magical day!