Overwhelmed

Yes she's painting her nails with Princess hobbitch (polish)

I am a list maker, if I don't have a list things just don't feel right.  Lately even with a list I've been out of sorts.  My sis and I did some shopping on Thanksgiving and she diagnosed me with anxiety.  I get stressed out over silly things, I have an almost constant pain in my side and a twitchy eye lid.

I'm working hard to feel better, but so far it's not working.

• my gifts are all purchased and wrapped, including stocking stuffers
• birthday presents are all purchased and the last 2 arrived today to be wrapped
• I made all kinds of appts today.  Hair, facial, massage, dentist, gutters, and most importantly the doctor for my anxiety and nerve pain when I concussed myself last year.
• I did all but 3 things on todays list and still feel awful

My man wants to be understanding but he doesn't get it.  I tried to explain it like this - I just want to relax and every time I try and let out a nice long breath i think of something else and have to get up and do it.  I'm forcing myself to just chill out tonight.  My list isn't too far away and I keep adding to it.  I have a whole week without him while he pheasant hunts and I hope to have the list down to nothing!  So far it just keeps growing.

Today my sis told me about Erin Carden planners and I think that's going to occupy tonight.  This seems like my level of organization!  I'm off to Pinterest